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Well here’s an exercise in examining my past.  I found an old diary, and I figure ‘what the hell’… why not share the mind of a 13 year old Trisha here.  I was blogging before blogging was cool!  After looking through it, looks like I wrote in this shitty little journal off & on between 1995, presumably when I got it, and 2000.  13 entries in 1995… some mundane, some a window into the horror of living with Penni, and some glimpses of why I’m still friends with some people… and not friends with others.  Since there’s more than a few, I’ll split this up into two posts. 

1/1/95:

Dear Diary,

My New Year’s resolutions are: to slim down, to keep this diary, & to try to get a boyfriend.  Today, I went down to The Wherehouse to exchange a tape that I bought.  The tape didn’t rewind & it made the singers voices sound wobbly.  But later I found it might be my boombox, since the new tape does the same thing.  Breakfast: doughnuts, lunch: broccoli chicken cheese pockets, & dinner: grilled cheese sandwiches.  On the way to the store I lost the receipt to take the tape back, but I retraced my tires (I was on bike) & found it.  Dad got a new job & he starts tomorrow.  He is the manager of a paint store in San Jose.  Bye!

 

Trisha Floyd

 

Incidentally, the paint store was actually in Santa Clara.  This was during the phase I was in where I was writing all the Rs as capital R.  Lame.  Looks like I was also not dotting my Is.  It’s funny the strange things we do as pre-teens trying to define ourselves, even with our hand writing. 

 

Dear Diary,

Today was Dad’s 1st day at work.  He said it was great.  I did all the laundry I could.  Breakfast: cereal, lunch: Chinese food & dinner: spaghetti.  We go back to school tomorrow.  Remember, locker # is 499 & combo is 44-28-16.  In my locker, I have a blue locker shelf, a white mirror, & a Little Caesars magnet.  I’m going to add a pink mirror, an angel magnet, & a “Trisha” magnet.  Bye!

 

Trisha Lyn Floyd

 

PS - I also did a lot of sewing today.  I sewed Florida’s ear, Sonic’s ear & shoulder, the bottom of Damian’s sleeping bag, & Damian’s shorts.

 

Hmm, I remember that “Trisha” magnet and totally wish I still had it!  I wonder whatever happened to it.  All the sewing seems to make me think I got my sewing machine for Christmas that year, but I don’t think it’s THAT old.  It’s kind of interesting, looking back, that I thought to write down what locker # was mine and what the combination was.  Sometimes I have dreams where I don’t know where my locker is or what the combination is, so I wonder what this might be a deeper sign of?  Interesting, to say the lease. 1/3/95:

Dear Diary,

Just went back to school today.  Added things to my locker, got Latasha & Eileen’s phone #s. B - cereal, L - Chicken burger, chocolate milk, It’s It, & D - sausage patties, biscuits & gravy, & hash browns.  1st period - learned about spreadsheets.  Rainy day lunch schedule.  Bye.

 

Trisha Floyd

 

Well, it’s clear that once I was back in school I didn’t have much of a desire to really write down anything meaningful in the diary.  And man, I miss those Its Its.  I should get one the next time I’m at 7-11.  Retrospectively, I’m glad I learned the art of self-editing… so I don’t write blog posts as mundane as this entry was.

1/4/95:

Dear Diary,
Today makes 20 more days of school left.  I’m doing some cool articles in school.  Friday is Katie’s B.D.  I want to buy her something but I don’t have the money right now.  I made this almost deal with Dad that if I save 1/2 the money for another My Magic Diary (mine was stolen).  He hasn’t decided yet, but I think he may say, “Yes”.  See you later.  Bye! Trisha Floyd

Wow…I don’t remember if I ever got a second one of those.  I think I got something different instead for Christmas that year.  The beginnings of PDAs for teenagers!  I think I might have got a second one because I remember Damian or Donald stepping on it in our bedroom downstairs, when we still shared one.  Of course, not all days were so light…

5/23/95:

Dear Diary,
I HATE PENNI (VERLA).  I got to move.  Today she slapped me around & called me all sorts of names.  All my friends know.  Just because about 3 plates were dirty when I loaded them into the dishwasher.  Its not my fault she’s so damn picky.  I can’t stand it anymore.  Today, I put some hair things & my toothbrush & toothpaste in my backpack.  I actually considered (seriously) running away.  Or just not coming home.  She said I can’t go to Lorenza’s party on Saturday, but I’m going to talk to Dad about it.  I don’t care what she says, “Run to Daddy”. Well, I will! Trisha Floyd

Raise your hand if you still don’t understand why my self image is so fucked up!  I don’t know if this was the first time I considered running away, but I know I actually did run a few times later on… once to Lorenza’s, once to Katie’s, and the best time was when I called my Grandma and she came & picked me up in Alameda.  We went to the Base & shopped and such, then I went back home to her house, where my mom was living at the time.  It was starting to look like they were going to fight to keep me there instead of going back, but it didn’t work out.  I venture to say that I wish it had worked out, but then I’d have had to move from Alameda to Hayward & things may actually not have turned out that well. 

I guess a few days later though, all seemed right in the world.  I remember this day without the diary entry.5/25/95:

Dear Diary,
Today was so tight!  We went to Raging Waters in San Jose.  Dad says there were probably only about 500 people spread about the whole park!  All the lines were short & most didn’t even have lines.  We brought Louie’s pal Asahd with us.  We had a picnic lunch of hoagies & chips & pepsi.  We had a blast!  Then @ 9pm, Lorenza called back & I went to her slumber party.  The only other person there was Katie.  We watched Man’s Best Friend & Richie Rich.  Well, catch ya later!

Trisha

Yes, I remember using the word “tight” to describe overly awesome things.  Tsk tsk.  That was also, unquestionably, the best day I’ve ever had at Raging Waters or any other water park lol.  I also remember watching MBF with my fingers over my eyes most of the time.  Nothing has really changed… I’m still a total puss when it comes to scary movies.  This was also the beginning entry of an epic 3 in a row lol!  So back when Jennie was still Jenny… 3/28/95:

Dear Diary,
Today was moderately tight.  I hung with Lorenza at her house until @ 12pm, & then we swung by the house, dropped offmy stuff, then we to Jenny Acosta’s house to kick it.  We sat & were just kickin’ it with Jenny & her older sister Angela.  I had to come home at 3pm to iron, but it was fun.  I got most of my ironing done, & watched “Heart & Souls” with Robert Downey Jr.  Tomorrow, I’m going to try to watch “Camp Nowhere” w/ Christopher Lloyd.  Well, see ya!

Trisha Lyn Floyd

Well, I still like “Heart & Souls”…can’t say the same for “Camp Nowhere”.  I also remember this day without the diary entry…I think this is one of the only times I hung out at Jennie’s house until later in high school.  5/29/95:

Dear Journal,
Today was so/so.  We didn’t have school today, so I cleaned my room & watched “Camp Nowhere”.  It was a cool movie.  My room looks much better.  I also dusted.  Plus, IO have to think of a place to hide my diary.  Donald got a hold of it.  Tomorrow, I’m going to hopefully wear my shorts to school.  There wasn’t any school today because of the holiday.  Well, see ya later.  Bye!

Trisha Lyn Floydp.s. I’ve decided to hide you hanging on a bar behind my cubby.

I have no idea what cubby this is referring to…I have to assume that Donald found the diary but probably didn’t read it.  Or else I can’t imagine not having mentioned it.  There was a long absence in writing… maybe because I hid it then couldn’t find it? This was the last of the entries that happened while I was in middle school, so I might as well split the others off in another entry.